Blessings

Blessings. I've had a lot of time to reflect on blessings recently. Past blessings I was in too much of fog to see even though rested right on the tip of my nose. Present blessings, in the form of my beautiful child, my Yosef, myself blossoming with emerging life....Baruch Hashem so much blessing shining with blinding light that blurs out so much from my past that I've waited a lifetime to forget. Angst, isolation, rejection, broken hearts, I don't remember why these negative things felt so strong once upon a time. And future blessings bshaa tovah, in G-d's good time. 5 years ago my life was filling with abundant blessing. Marriage, Israel, my son who brings me so much light. But the fog around me just wouldn't let me see it.